Lots of Love,
Monday, November 30, 2009
Lots of Love,
Friday, November 27, 2009
I'm Pooped with a capital "P" and Grouchy with a capital "G"... I need some good sleep and won't be able to get it just yet. So I'm going to pout *insert big pouty face*
Tonight is my company party and I'm not going to be able to keep up with anyone. Good news is no one really expects me too anyway because my company can party- we are know for our our lack of inhibition. I am not known for that, I am know for ditching out before 10pm because I'm lame like that.
I was going to go all out and buy a new dress but then I got to thinking... I'm just going to get dirty so why ruin a $800 silk Nicole Miller when I can ruin and maybe wash an $80 dress from Urban. See, I'm thinking!
Here's the plan:
- Leave Work at Noon
- Arrive for cocktails- 6pm with the entourage
- Have Dinner at 7pm ( I have NO idea what's on the menu)
- 9pm dancing and mischief
- 11pm (at the latest) duck out and leave everyone to their own devices (excessive binge drinking).
- Wake up the next day fresh as a daisy just in time to enjoy breakfast. Maybe even go for a swim before hand.
This is a company party, the idea of going full out and making a fool out of myself is not an option. I do a damn good job of that on a day to day bases- sober.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
There is this thing. It's a part of me (this is a some what serious post by the way)... I don't really know if it's a person or an old relationship or just plain ol' junk in my trunk that rattles around every time I take a sharp corner. Regardless, it's this thing and it just doesn't go away. I wonder if I'm being silly now... second guessing my choices or maybe I've just forgotten why I made the choices I did. Exactly how long does one play Hide and Go Seek for? I've been found- sort of. But I don't want to give up and maybe that's part of the problem is that I'm hiding, waiting to be seeked when really I should just get up out of my hiding spot and go the heck home. I thought that's what I was doing... but the game just followed me. I've told him, I don't want to play anymore. I tried to stand out in the open but he just walks up and tugs on my arm till I can't ignore him anymore. I'm strong, I can turn around and pretend he's not there but I can't ignore the tugs. Not on the inside. I talked to a lady about this once, she told me the whole thing was like a drug and if I kept it in my life it would eventually eat me up. I talked to the police about it and they told me I should be scared, but I'm not. I talked to the phone company and they gave me a deal when I changed my phone number. I talk to my friends and they tell me not to talk at all, not to this thing at least.
It's not working though... I've picked up and move on and I've grown somewhat numb to it. Numb to most of it except for the silliness I feel. I feel silly. I feel immature and silly. This is going come out all wrong but it's be best I can do- if Hank Moody and Karen can function dysfunctional- why can't I? True, I don't have kid and I'm not like Karen however this thing is an awful lot like Hank Moody in more ways then I describe. This thing treats me like Hank treats Karen yet I treat Hank like how Kevin Bacon treated those Tremor things. I know, that doesn't really make sense to you but it makes sense to me. Even though I never ever though I would ever compare myself to Kevin Bacon... never mind, it's not really important.
I wonder if I can turn around and be friends now. Not even friends, just let myself be accessible so then the emotional charge of finding me will be gone and all anxiety will dissolve. I had good reasons at the time for turning my back on everything and it kept being confirmed year after year after year of ignoring him and he just kept on. I'm sick of this story but I can never write an end for it. Like a puzzle that never gets solved, it's exhausting and I throw it away but someone keeps giving it back to me to finish... I just don't know how to finish.
How do I finish this?
Or is it finished like one of those math equations with a repeating number that goes on forever after the decimal point- you know it is the answer but the answer doesn't have really have a satisfying end. It's my Californequation...
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
All this "Mmmm-ing" can you tell I haven't had a stitch of breakfast yet?
Today my two favorite people are away from work- Jeremy and Edith. Jeremy is my lunch time BFF. He took Rheann's place when she left- not that anyone can replace Rheann but I need someone to waste endless minutes with a few times a day. I am far too lazy to make the trek up stairs to the 26th floor to visit with J. C. (Jenn C. NOT Jesus Christ. That would be weird) and Chandara. Edith works in my department and we go for a walk every morning to get coffee... I usually get steamed milk ( I don't drink coffee) and some kind of baked goodness. We've become pretty close in the last few months.
Yesterday Morning I had some breakfast meeting at the Petroleum Club with my department at work. It was surprisingly fun, I got to spy on people while eating really good bacon. Plus I got a free pen, note pad and sunglasses clip- WOOP-WOOP! Fun times, some what made up for the fact they didn't have any fresh fruit and they had that scary scrambled egg stuff that comes out of a milk carton... Egg Beaters maybe? That stuff is gross and I would go on strike if I had to eat it on a regular bases. Sick. Yuck...
Yesterday after work Laura came and picked me up and I had to go driving, you see... I don't have a car and just don't drive. I lack total confidence in my skills and well, would like to change that. I have a deal with Laura that she has to make me drive (just like I had to call the Dentist and make an appointment for her)- no excuses, no nothing. I have to do it and I have to be confident come spring time. I saw 10 bunnies while I was driving- I was pretty excited. We stopped by my parents place, played with the dogs and had dinner. Then we took my mum out who has been couped up in the house for the last 2 weeks due to surgery. She's feeling better but still isn't able to drive just yet.
Tonight, I have a date with my Dad. It's opera season again and tonight is the season opener (Hmmm.. that sounds more like "sports" talk then "Opera" talk) with the production of Manon.
I hope that this isn't one of those long opera with only one intermission... I prefer it when there are two intermissions.
As for the rest of the week I have an appointment with a periodontist (oh joy) and then my company Christmas party which is in Banff this year (Yippee!). That's a change from the last few years so this will be nice. I'll take pictures, hopefully it's snowing in the mountains. we haven't had ANY snow in the city... It's been dry and some what warm for November.
Now that I have spilled most of my thoughts out of my head and into my post I can start my work and hopefully get it done. I have a fair bit to do and haven't been in the office much this week- sort of. So mush-mush, time to get some stuff done!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
After some brainstorming the Gov started to release the vaccine again however with strict guidelines this time. They opened more clinics and made sure that they started with the most vulnerable first. Working their way down priority and high risk groups they finally announced last week that as of November 23rd all regular residents of Alberta could finally get their H1N1 vaccine. That meant me! YIPPPEEEE!!!
I left work a little early just in case there was going to be line-ups or even a small fraction of the craziness that had happened before when it was a free for all. Arriving at one of the 7 immunization clinics (I went the the Calgary Stampede Grand strand Grounds- didn't have to pay for parking) I was delighted to see no lines. True, there were people (as I was happy to see as well, I believe that it is a socially responsible thing to do and we should try our best to achieve a "herd immunity" but that's just my opinion and I listen to scientists, skeptics and medical professionals a lot) but there was a lovely flow to the whole thing.
Greeted by security guards wearing white cowboy hats (Only in Calgary) and smiles they told me where I needed to head to get started. I was given one simple form to complete (Name, DOB and Alberta Health Care Number) and was sent on my marry way to get a wrist band and then WHOA! Off to a nurse! It took me NOT EVER 5 minutes to be sitting with clammy hands in front of a nurse with a smile, some stickers and a H1N1 Vaccine for me. We talked for a little bit, I told her I was nervous... I'm a nervous person. In a matter of 1 second (really, I counted) she poked me with the needle and vaccinated me. It didn't hurt (I'm not scared of needles, THANK GOD) and I think the rush of adrenalin was the worse thing about it. I sat there while she completed my paperwork and sent me on my marry way again- it was important that I wait 15 minutes just in case there was a reaction to it. Again, there were rows of chairs- people were waiting their 15 minutes playing on their cell phones or watching TVs that had been provided. Being the nervous person I am I think I may have waited 20 minutes.. JUST to be sure that I was OK. I felt fine...
That night I went home and made some broccoli soup. I took a Tylenol just in case for the expected arm stiffness and headache. I was a little tired before going to bed but that worked in my favor... I slept like the dead and woke up fresh and beyond happy. I felt good- my arm didn't hurt, my head didn't hurt and I didn't have any of the common reactions to the vaccine. To be honest, I was a little disappointed because I was prepared to use my adverse effects as a way to get out of a grossly early business meeting and hang out with my friend Laura.
I had nothing though- I felt amazing, I was starting to doubt if I ever got the vaccine at all! In about 10 days I'll have my leg up and a decent amount of immunity to help me keep the H1N1 virus at bay and keep myself, friends and family healthy. I see that a number of people effected have already been going down over the last week or so which is good. I imagine though that we may have a another wave of it come January when real flu season starts. Or maybe we won't. It doesn't hurt to have the extra antibodies floating around in my system. It doesn't hurt to eat dirt either!
All in all, anyone who is considering getting the vaccine- now is the time to get it. Clinics are well stocked and soon it will be available at pharmacies, doctors offices and other such places that you could get any vaccine.
Happy immunity everyone, you won't be voted off the island this week!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Yesterday I made bread for the first time in a machine. Usually it's a day long event involving gluey fingers, doughy counters, floured floors and lots of down time. I must admit that I was pretty skeptical that it would work out for me. I mean seriously folks, dump all the ingredient and press start? Since when is anything editable that easy? Or tasty? I did it though, I dumped my milk, flour, salt, sugar and yeast (I'm not going to make anything fancy on the first try) and pressed start. Peaking through the window I saw the little fin/blade thing attempting to mix everything together. I scoffed at it and went to go do something else. A little later the sound of pounding reached my ears, I rushed to the kitchen only to see the little bread machine attempting to kneed the dough. Worried it was going to kneed it's self right off the counter I pushed it back against the wall and left the room again.
I forgot about it for a good few hours. It wasn't until the smell of fresh bread met my nose did I remember that I was making bread! *BING!* went my little machine and I thought "Well, it must be ready... I wonder how bad this is going to be."
Pulling out the pan and tipping it over BOY was surprised when my machine birthed a golden, crusty perfectly PERFECT loaf of bread! Cutting it I sampled my first piece. SO GOOD! No clean up- I could not get over how easy that was! I ate the whole loaf within 6 hours. My next bread adventure will be to make some bird seed bread (as noted in my list of 30 things to do before I turn 30).
Friday, November 20, 2009
...and I quote "#18- Play Cards"
I'm a big fan of Crib, my Grandmother and I use to play every Easter- obviously being the one who taught me, she taught me well. I'm very lucky at Crib and think I should quit my day job and play it professionally... but I'm too young for that right now. I am the Bobby Fisher of Crib- does that make me a geek or just braggy? tee hee.. of course, I'm just exaggerating... I enjoy Crib and my mind thrives on the simple math and problem solving. For me, there is often no easier rush then getting a hand that spills out 16, 20, 29... I'm easily amused what can I say!
#30- Laugh at least 57 times
FROZEN YOGURT! My favorite, as much as I hate to admit it I'm not really into Ice Cream (I know, SHAME ON ME! Tisk-tisk) but frozen yogurt, I dig. Literally. With an edible spoon from Spoon Me which has just opened up it's first Canadian Shop RIGHT here in Calgary.
1130 Kensington Rd. N.W.
I could care less that it is fat free- puh-lees! That isn't the way I live my life. I live my life for the toppings of chocolate, fresh fruits and Mmm Mmm Mmmmmm So take advantage of our lovely November Global Warming weather and go grab yourself a frosty frozen yogurt this weekend.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Others can get more than they bargained for today if they try to control you, for your intense emotions are churning just beneath the surface. The slightest provocation can bring forth a flood of passion as you defend yourself against someone who makes you feel insecure. But your position may be not as precarious as it seems and your swift reaction may be overstated. Take a few deep breaths and let your anxieties settle before you respond.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Have my first official dinner/house warming party
- Make that little cubby room into a full on storage/pantry area
- Finish furnishing my place (and post pictures because that seems to be what everyone does)
Dust off my camera and take some pictures
- Find a place in Calgary that serves Dim Sum and go get some (teehee)
- Make a loaf of whole wheat bird seed bread (it's what I call bread that had seeds and nuts in it)
- Knit something and use it
Go to at least one concert (i haven't seen any live acts in a few months) preferably someone who I haven't seen live already Visit the Glenbow Museum
- Join something in my community to meet people
- Learn to cook something exotic
- Kiss a girl *laughs*
- Ice Skate at Olympic Plaza
Spend a day at Heritage Park Go to Zoo Lights
- Dust off my water colours and paint with them
- Sign up for lessons of some sort (guitar, art, dance- whatever)
have a good cup of coffee and enjoy it (I don't drink coffee)
- Unpack and use my telescope
- Locate my x-country skis and make plans to go out to Canmore
- Make a necklace and earring suite
- Sing like I use to
- Make snow angles (if it ever snows)
- Learn how to eat a pomegranate and then do it
- Pick a classic book and read it
- Learn how to apply make-up
- Visit a beauty counter and find out what products I should be using on my (aging) skin
- Laugh at least 57 times
- (for good measure) create a list of things to do before I turn 40
I may have already achieved one now- I wrote a whole post without ANY misspellings- that is UNHEARD of in my world! OK- so keep your eyes open for my list!
What are some of the things you want or wanted to do before you were 30?
Have you done them?
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
OK, exposing myself a little here I am about to admit how down and geeky I can get. I listen to a fascinating (and often dangerously hilarious) podcast called The Skeptics Guide to the Universe . It's heavy in the science area which for me, if right up my fancy little alley- think of it as a step up from Mythbusters (minus the TV show part).
I haven't listened to it in a few weeks so while I was working this morning I had it on my iPod, during the opening sequence of last weeks show -November 4th 2009- they introduced something called The Symphony of Science. Particularly, they played a beautiful auto-tuned "musical" piece called A Glorious Dawn featuring snippets of Carl Sagan from Cosmos and every ones favorite human robot- Steven Hawking
Music + Science + Smart People = LOVE *swoon* I'm not sure how to make food fit into that equation but I guess that can be worked out later.
PS: This appears to be the "link" post of the week... sorry, I just haven't had the time to write out a full post but I really wanted to write... so in turn I just had to link to a bunch of important stuff. blah blah blah.. haha
Monday, November 16, 2009
Current Music Obsession: Ohbijour
It was a year ago that I first heard Ohbijou on an obscure radio station and rushed home to investigate who this band was. Harmonious and sweet... "hushed and heart tugging", I was slightly addicted. Upon locating them online and buying up all the music I could I discovered that they were playing at a venue near me along with 2 other musical obsessions (later to be described).
This small little indie/pop/folk/blue grassy band although outwardly appear shy on stage hold strong in their live performances. Peppered with such instruments as bass, banjo, drums, trumpet, cello, piano, synth, glockenspiel, electric piano, and mandolin one can't help but gap in awe and the talent that exists between these 7 musician. Listen for yourself...
The Woods by Ohbijour (the song that first caught my attention)
They play live in Calgary on November 18th 2009 at the Marquee Room on 8th Ave so check them out if you get the chance.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Johnny Cash spent time in jail after being caught picking
flowers illegally...FACT (yes, that's right FACT): It was only for
one night and although jailed several times, he never spent more than one night
at a time in jail*shocked!*
Thursday, November 12, 2009
No... Once upon a time there was dark in my life now there's only work in the light...Something happened while I was away this last week from work. Something bright and unexpected at 7:30 this morning. Somebody came into my office and changed all my burnt out lights. I only had 2 maybe 3 that weren't working and they had been that way for about 2 years but now? NOW I have all 6 burning hard and bright. Obnoxious...
Before, I had a nice, mood enhancing mix of natural light from the window and with a gentle wash of artificial light. It was relaxed, soothing and romantic (Work=Romantic? Guess sooo.. I LOOOOOOVE spreadsheet *swoon*). Now, my eyes are being pillaged by the harsh intrusion of florescent badness- yes BADNESS. If Lindsey Lohan were to be a light bulb SHE should be these nasty florescent bulb things.
Nobody looks good under these things. Not even Bobble head Dwight Schrute and he always looks good.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
- Go to the dermatologist (for fun, he's great!)
- Grocery shopping 3 times (mmmm... food....)
- Seen some movie about goats... maybe it's called Men Who Stare At Goats... yeah- I think that's it. It has Obi-Wan Kenobi in it...
- Made a full on BBQ chicken feast.
- Got a free incense stick from one of the shop owners along Inglewood (I also think I may have offended another shop owner when I asked for a deal on a slightly damaged book)
- OMG do Laundry which is ready NOW!! Holy Crap- I'll be back!
Good times. GOOOOOD time. Take care of your selves and don't forget to wash your nose!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Oh Cookie Monster, how I identify with you so. Your passion for the sweeter things in life and inability to keep your monster self under control when in the presence of COOKIES (oh the things I have done for cookies, I am sure you can relate) or anything round-ish in shape. The last few years you have been given a lot slack, much like Barbie, for contributing to health issues in today's youth. Some may disagree with me however I believe that it has nothing to do with you, people just want to blame a monster- ANY monster and you just happen to fir the bill. It takes a big man to succumb to so much criticism. I appreciate your honesty when you appeared on The Colbert Report stating that you are the Robert Downey Jr. of Cookies and had "crazy times" in the 70's and 80's.
All the ladies except for Prairie Dawn
PS: Is it wrong of me to want to give Cookie Monster a good brushing?
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
There have been a few episodes that have stuck out for me from my child hood years, one aired on American Thanksgiving 1983- "Farewell, Mr. Hooper". In this episode Big Bird deals with the death of Mr. Hooper, the shop owner of Mr. Hooper's Shop- the actor who played Mr. Hooper passed away in real life a few months before the show was taped. I remember being awestruck by the rawness of the story line even at the tender age of 3 and feeling empathetic towards the loss Big Bird must be feeling.
Christmas Eve on Sesame Street 1978
I love taking a trip down a 1980's Sesame Street mind trip, have a great day!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
I've been lustfully obsessing over The Temper Trap since I saw 500 Days of Summer, playing Sweet Disposition continuously for months. when they released their first full album Conditions on Oct 20, 2009 (Canada is so late on that boat. The rest of the world got it over the summer... lame but that's OK. It's here now.) I was honestly surprised at how much I enjoyed THE REST of the album. I think you'd have to have a very vapid knowledge of U2 to not notice the major influence on the music with the presence of "grand guitars". If MGMT and Vampire Weekend were to have a love child, I image that perhaps The Temper Trap might be that.
Originally from Melbourne, Australia- they have now moved to London to try and rev up the bands fan base. It has been noted that the band prefers to perform for large audience as in the smaller venues the lead singer feels more exposed and vulnerable.
Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap
The Science of Fear by The Temper Trap
Lost Love (Live) by The Temper Trap (thankfully they have a clapping guide for me)
Notable songs from the album Conditions:
Solider On** (personal NEW music obsession song)
photo borrowed from Life Lounge
Say "Hi" Blanche!
OK, now that we have the formalities out of the way I can tell you a bit more about who I am.
What is My Dog Dinner? My Dog Dinner actually came about from a computer game I fell in love with (Fact: I am a GEEK who loves other geeks.) called Fate. My character in the game is this girl who travels though the catacombs of an evil castle and fights all types of evil beings, she does not however do this alone. She has a pet which goes in the very depth of hell with her, never leaving her side and always helping to fight evil, carry heavy armor and go to town in case of emergency. My pet, a dog which I call Dinner (yes, My Dog Dinner) is the closest companion my video game character has, I chose the name Dinner because in real life I'd like to call my real (future dream) dog Dinner. In reality, I'm a very quirky kind of girl. I haven't played Fate in a long time sadly, I just haven't had the time because when I get playing it I loose all concept of time.
Who is Amourissima?Amourissima is an name I use that is actually not a name at all, it's a title of a song from one of my favorite all time musical artists of all time. Feist, I have been a fan of her music for about 10 years- well before "1234" became the song that it is now. I actually have a live, raw, original version of the same song and it is very, very, different from the song we all know today. When Feist released "Let It Die" in the UK, she included some bonus songs that are unavailable in Canada. Amourissima is one of them, it's a melancholic piano melody with heavy lyrics.
this is not the actual video ( i actually think it's kind of horrible, so just close your eyes and listen to the song rather then watch it) but it's the best I can find in computer land. Amourissima isn't a real word, it was something that was created between Lesley Feist and her friend/musical partner in crime- Gonzales.
So that is a bit about me, I thought it was time that I stripped a little bit of the cover away from myself. The End!(Now I can finally use one of those signatures that ALL the cool kids have without it seeming like I'm in a updated and poorly written copy of "Sybil")
It truly does pay to have talented, creative friends who help me take my silly little notions to a WHOLE other level.